deppression

There's a gut wrenching pain in my chest, At first I thought It was nought but a test, Till it ripped it tugged it stabbed at my heart, And I knew for sure 'twas we're both apart. I love her, But I'm just to shy, And I don't know why. She looks at me, And what does she see, Nothing but a friend, But 'round life's hidden bends, She'd see I loved her, and she was braking my heart. I love her, But I'm just to shy, And I don't know why. I want to tell her that I love her so, But as I walk to her I stand on my toe, It's just I have no guts, As towards me she struts, I love her, But I'm just to shy, And I don't know why. Now a

Emotions There's a lesson I've learnt, Emotions it's about, They're for what I did yearn, Now in my head do they crowd. There's colours blinding, A jumble of words, A distant crying, The chirrup of a bird. Of my first love, We failed abysmally, I thought 'twas from above, But loves nought but free. This tear forming, In my left eye, Depression It's causing, I wish to die. I'll lock my heart up, And throw away the key, It shall not be breached, Because it's always hurting me. My feelings I shall lock away, They being my downfall, In hope depression will go away, For I'm reduced to crawl. I must defy these emotions, Fo

Need for your love Why do I lie? Why not tell the truth, I look to the sky, And shake my heart lose. To see through, These deceptions of mine, I might be a fool, For this love I would die. If you saw through my lies, I would wish to confess, This truth in my eyes, I need your caress. Don't turn around, This is for you, For if you do sound, I'll come unto you. Pain unto death, If push comes to shove, For you I would die, In the midst of your love. So to end this place, Look to me from above, For the arms of embrace, I'll find in your love.

Everyday of my life I ask, About that soul tearing day, Why did her life have to pass, Why not take my life away. I stand upon her grave, My mind overwhelmed, For I've nothing left to save, I've lost my only friend. She meant more than this to me, I feel it's that it's all my fault, It's so depressing to see, My life is pulled to a halt. Why did this have to be, I didn't want to find, I'm gonna have to flee, Into the depths of my mind. I feel so dismal inside, Just show me a sign, And I'll be at your side, At the front of the line. I shall go run and hide, At that great cost, For that voice inside says, Love is not los

Baby blue yes, Total innocence, Colourless cries, Stares intense. Gathered around, Purest soul, Makest not a sound, For this was her role. To say goodbye, What we've come to do, Wishing it were a lie, Though we all know it's true. To lose you we've come, Along with our hearts, This is your home run, Yet at last base you start.

I care I know what I am destined to seek, I know what I am destined to find, To wipe the crystal tears from your cheeks. This fate I will not be denied. Don't try to push me away, I can't be detoured, I just want you to hear me say, My love for you is assured. And throughout my life, My thoughts will rest upon you, Through my pain and strife, You I know will see me through. And you know how much I do, Although you cannot count or see it, I know how much to, So why is it here I sit. I need you to know this, For I fear my time is nigh, Forgive me though I do persist, I'm now losing my mind. And although I search for sanity,

Missed My hands dark in red, Described by mine blood, For today I have bled, Caused by springs first bud. Why is it mine that's spilt? My rage it shall not tower, I'll lie here waiting till, The last of those buds flower. For as it is said, And I know it to be true, Last petals to spread, Are most beautiful too. But I have lost my faith, In all that is good, Now all that is left, For me to weep and brood. This anger inside, It's awesome power, With none to confide, Upon me it dose shower. What can I do, What have I done, All I want now Is you, What am I to become. She haunts my dreams, Forever more, Voiced by thousa

My life unfurled, Before my eyes, Why did u leave this world, For to you I am tied. It has cut me, You're tearing away, Why does this have to be, I just can't say. That bond, From me to you, Of it I'm rather fond, Now it's fading I know not what to do, I will stand by you, To the very end, I'll drag myself through, Though a hand you might lend. For that bond between us, I'll do it unaided, It is based on trust, And has never wavered. You may fade away, But on this mass of land, And to this very day, At your side I shall stay.

Please My thoughts to you, Like moth and flame, Together we flew, Fated the same. All my life, Waiting for a moment, Through my pains an strife, Tell me it's not torment. I look to the sky, The moon and the stars, My emotions to fly, To the heavens so far. An through all my troubles, I look to my gains, My life now humbled, Standing there still the same. An i say, If all might end, Of most important things, Will you still be my friend.

Unfair Small hopes for future, Why is this way? How can i go further, All i want is to stay. Fists of frustration, Clenched in locks of hair, Tears now forming, My future laid bare. Water drops upon the page, Streaming down my face, Soul now running from the day, Yet here is where my heart shall stay. Don't want this hurt, Destroyeth me, Breaking in my heart, Inside no one shall see. I see this now as i begin, The road to life overgrown with sin, Combined with those to overcome, What journey is this that i've begun.

Kill our future And burn our hearts. Destroy the truth With poisoned darts. Take our lives And run them through. Give the snow A crimson hue. Blooded spear Murder this. Between our ribs Thrust and twist. Lives are shattered Pieces torn. Love is lost Peoples mourn. Fearing you Anger and hate. Scream for help But it's too late.

Dwindling….a reason a season or a lifetime Dreams of falling in love, Achieving all you've ever thought of,   …In love, motion outstretched, A thought proposed A sing Touch….and the light goes Days are numbered Like you've lost count of time Maybe loves feeling a crime Some days I wonder, in my bed where I lie Someday well grow older with hope your still by my side And if before then …. I grow colder Can't bear this weight upon my shoulders Where does that leave me…leave us .... Will you still be there? As you promised as you said Forever and ever till the end Tears to my eyes White, a paleness, from red blood bled The li

Loneliness Sitting here And I'm not sure why I'm feeling this blue Wanting to cry Maybe it's 'cause You're not around Picking me up When I fall to the ground You're all I want And all I need Don't ever go Don't ever leave --

Screaming. It's too quiet in here I see you You reach out And with your icy cold fingers You freeze my blood So I can never sleep You're always on my mind I never forget Your screams Tear my soul I cry for you Bleeding I see you Every time I close my eyes My fault It always was Empty existence The final cry I'm sorry. Sorry.

Darkness deepest depression has sunk into my skin Hells evil monsters resign within Dreaming of trees sweet sap and bees honey resin Falling into a sleep seemed unrest full nodding deep Till I wake to find invisible blood bled Stained my sheets in the tears I've wept Found love has gone to sleep In my sleep I dream of you, of such a love true Were no grey sky, nor wayward butterfly dare hurt us. Thought the cursed angels scratch such a surface And hells grave we walk upon, at any stage destined to fall Slipping to the depths of hell Were angels doomed sing and well Were those of pain reside in spite Haunt the living in the dea

hope, peace, truth, and trust are not just forbidden fruit for mankind to mourn, or the facade of humanity for its righteousness and scorn. give greetings to my sanity, because like a plant it will grow back it's leaves. hope and peace are always there in the darkest corners of the soul. they will keep your last speck of life lit, so there is always a way to get back your control. Say good morning to my dreams, they still have time to come true. truth and trust you must learn from others. though they will tear you down and watch you burn. there is still goodness in humanity, no matter how much the evil inside yearns. don'